Reflections

Started Sunday morning with my coffee in one hand, a curling iron in the other, and some music to do my mascara to.   He's Always Been Faithful  by Sara Groves came up on my ipod playlist.  I hadn't heard this song in a really long time.  Even though I was getting ready in less time than usual this morning, I just paused and listened. 

"Morning by morning I wake up to find
the power and comfort of God's hand in mine.
Season by season I watch Him amazed,
in awe of the mystery of His perfect ways.

All I have need of His hand will provide.
He's always been faithful to me."

Sweet moments of reflection.  Of appreciating God's presence... and that He is present.  That I wake up and say hello to the God of the universe... and He's actually there to be with me.  Over the seasons I can see His faithfulness, and His hand protecting me and directing me where I should go.  I'm so thankful to be His.

"I can't remember a trial or a pain
He did not recycle to bring me gain.
I can't remember one single regret
in serving God only and trusting His hand."

I felt like I was hearing the words of this song for the first time.  After hearing this verse I wanted to dance: "This is true- this is true!" It brought to mind a season in my life that was very hard.  Recovery was heart-rending... I didn't understand, and couldn't see where God was taking me.  I just had to trust that God's plan was best.  

While still weathering this process, another came... a little boy I loved dearly, suddenly went to be the Lord.  He'd just celebrated his 6th birthday. The news hit me like an 18-wheeler. The grief I'd been going through with the first storm, had no comparison with the grief of Benjamin's death.   8 months later I still miss Ben very much... but memories of him make me smile now.  I love that little guy! 

Now time has passed since that first storm, and the pain & grief have long since quieted down and blown away.  I can look at the whole season and see that God has brought me through it stronger, and with a deeper assurance of His faithfulness.  It gives me hope for things I'm walking out now, and anything I may face in the future.  It makes me want to dance!  :-)

"All I have need of His hand will provide.
He's always been faithful to me."

The stories and principles we learn throughout God's Word are true.  I have stories of my own, my family has stories, other believers have their stories to remember too.... and one day we're going to see the God Who has led us by the hand and brought us into His kingdom.  Now we see dimly, but then.... oh glorious day!

"This is my anthem, this is my song,
the theme of the stories I've heard for so long.
God has been faithful, He will be again.
His loving compassion, it knows no end.

All I have need of His hand will provide.
He's always been faithful.... to me."